bleak.

When I was little, I was told I could do anything when I grew up.
I had this same strong willed determination all through my childhood, my awkward phase, my teenage angst. I had laid out my goals in my mind, and I was damned if I wasnt going to acheive them. I had this determination up until about 12 hours ago.
My future looks so bleak.
Its like Im caught in quicksand and as hard as I gifht to live, it is futile.
I have so many dreams, but for every one I have, I have about 10 obstacles in my way.
College? Its essential..but where will these thousands of dollars come from?
I keep telling myself just two more years..but thats a long time to pent it all up. They say they care, but in the end, Im the scapegoat.

Fuck my life.